Trying to Identify the Voices in My Head

2002-08-09T15:55:00.000-04:00

Greymatter is very difficult to install. =P

2002-08-01T13:56:00.000-04:00

Please work...

2002-07-31T17:18:00.000-04:00

So Aylah and I went to see Goldmember. I haven't actually seen the first two Austin Powers movie, but that really didn't matter. Anyway Goldmember was almost pee-your-pants funny, so everyone go see it.
I'm thinking I'm going to start FTPing my blog to Fathoms of Shadow. Screw Greymatter. I'm not very good at HTML or any other web design, so I'm just going to stick with what I know. (Not to mention I don't care if people post comments. I really don't.)
All day I've felt a little dejected, seeing as none of the people I talk to online ever seem to really want to talk to me. Apparently I need to pay more attention to whether I'm being annoying or not. I don't think I'm annoying, but I guess other people do. The instances where I IM people and they never bother to send a message back are becoming more and more frequent.

2002-07-31T11:31:00.000-04:00

Apparently there was yet another parent brawl at a Little League game in Florida. People can't show self-control, can they? One guy got his earlobe bitten off. Caught in the middle was a woman holding a nine-month-old baby, and these morons were so busy being juvenile that they didn't apy any attention to her and knocked the baby out of her arms. Fortunately the baby is okay, but I hate people who are so dramatic, self-centered, and .... gah *growls* at sports games. The kids started it, but the parents should've been there to break it up, not to make the situation worse.
There are two new poems and an excerpt from The Complex at Fathoms of Shadow. Maybe eventually I can get excerpt sup to all of my projects.

2002-07-30T20:04:00.000-04:00

So I had an extremely boring 3 hours at work. I worked the cash register once, but that and someone running in asking where the hospital was were the most exciting parts of my day. (And the latter really wasn't exciting; it just freaked me out.)
I fixed a few minor things at Fathoms of Shadow, and that's pretty much it. There's no one online who seems to want to talk to me, so I guess I'm going to go read blogs or something.

2002-07-29T22:05:00.000-04:00

I put up an excerpt from Muggle. It is linked off the Projects page.
Earlier I found a page from Hunted Quarry and the page of it I'd been needing desperately. So now I have it, and I am happy.

2002-07-29T17:30:00.000-04:00

Whee! Fathoms of Shadow is now here. With help from Minuet I figured out my FTP, and with help from Aylah I figured out how bad my new color scheme was. So PHP can basically go to hell, because I moved Tender Blue over to the new URL. Knob of Gilt will not be used because, like I said, it's ugly. (Or at least Aylah thought so, and I listen to her.) A bit of advice: yellow layouts are very, very difficult to match properly.
Despite the layout being the same, you will notice a few changes at Fathoms of Shadow: first, I added six new poems to the filing cabinet. Second, the index page no longer displays when the page was last updated. Why? Because I don't want to have to re-upload the index every single time I change something. So you'll have to come here for updates.
I'm working on updating all my webrings. It is taking a very long time. Oh well.

2002-07-29T14:22:00.000-04:00

*bangs head against monitor*
My site looks terrible. Version IV seemed like a good idea at the time, but the more I see it the more I dislike it. =P Not to mention my PHP stuff is being weird and the site won't update automatically. It's like the "What's My Age Again?" video; it seemed like a good idea for about ten minutes. Except in this case the idea wasn't blink-182 running around naked. So anyway, don't expect the new Fathoms of Shadow to be working properly for some time. The old one is still up (and will be for awhile), so go look at that one. Worse comes to worse, I guess I'll just save all of my current files and waste more time continuing Tender Blue at my new host.

2002-07-28T21:54:00.000-04:00

Whoa.
Everyone says FTP is painfully easy, but when you're a complete moron like me who's had a very, very long day, then it is hard. Eventually I figured it out, with help from the very patient Minuet. Now I just need my images and to fix my color scheme =P

2002-07-27T19:01:00.000-04:00

I'll try this again for a third time, this time offline so my words won't disappear. AOL shut off randomly when I was almost finished with my previous two entires. It's really not even worth the effort to swear at it anymore.
The more I look at this layout, the more true Luverly's words become--the image doesn't fit in with the rest of the layout. I found a really cool picture of Gwen Stefani which will be a future layout, but it'll have to wait. I don't know when I'm moving to v-aCOM, as Panuru was having some trouble with my FTP account, or if I'll switch to Greymatter. (Quite frankly, I think I'm too stupid to use Greymatter.) For now, you're stuck looking at the layout I love and everyone else hates. It is painfully simple, and I adore that. And it's my blog, so =P.
What they say is true--if you give up something you love, eventually you don't crave it anymore. The renaissance* board has been down for ages, it seems, but I no longer stare at the screen and think, Oh, I wish renaissance* was working... I post at Mocha Nova, although it has less activity, and do more constructive things online.
I downloaded FTP Explorer today, as apparently I don't have the right requirements for SmartFTP. (What's Windows Sockets, anyway?)
I will make AOL work.

2002-07-27T12:38:00.000-04:00

Impressively, I was up before nine this morning. AOHell kept breaking on my last night and it really makes me mad. It always seems to freeze the computer when I'm working on HTML or talking to someone.
Finished Spindle's End this morning. I liked the ending, but the middle dragged on and on and on. When you think about it, 425 pages for such a simple story is too much. The chronology was weird and there was a lot of rambling on and on about the characters' thoughts without adding to the story at all. A few sentences didn't make much sense, either. I love fantasy, but Garth Nix and Philip Pullman seem to be really the only people who write satisfying fantasy novels.
I'm fixing a few things at Fathoms of Shadow, like CSS and links and such. Tender Blue probably won't last much longer, which is a pity since I love the blue and white, but once I get hosted I'm going to switch to my PHP version of the site.

2002-07-26T21:31:00.000-04:00

No Doubt--"Just a Girl"

Guess who's gettin' hosted? Tavie's gettin' hosted!! Booya! Anyway, venus-atmosphereCOM is going to host me, as Panuru is also a fan of Titus Groan. So I am very happy and grateful.
I went to Aylah's today and we spent almost the entire time on the computer. I logged onto my IM, which resulted in Aylah & I having a four-hour-long conversation with Pinkerton. I feel kind of sorry for him, considering the fact he had to listen to our retarded rants and seizures for four hours.
Replying to e-mails totally bites.
Anyway, once I'm settled at my new *hosted* site (eee!) I'll be moving my blog there and changing the name to something slightly shorter: Onomatopoeia. Try saying that three times fast.
Aylah's stepdad is so weird. When he came back from work he saw my haircut and asked if I got struck by lightning. I simply said, "Yes. Twice."

2002-07-25T18:23:00.000-04:00

Sum 41 is cool. =)
So riding camp got over today. Our drill team thing, which is basically riding around to music, went okay. My brain function was a little better, so I managed to write some replies to e-mails. Probably not my best letter-writing, but at least I reply to people.
I need a topic to write about for Renaissance on Sunday. I also have to work and altar serve on Sunday. I'm going to be busy.

2002-07-24T17:52:00.000-04:00

Two days of riding camp will make you quite brain dead. I am completely wiped. (Mucking stalls and riding all day takes its toll). I have some e-mails to return, but I just can't think of anything to say other than the norm. I have a poem writing itself in my head and I can't word much else. So if you e-mailed me and haven't gotten a reply back yet, you'll know why.
I'm almost done with Muggle, by the way. I wrote the end while still in the beginning, so I just need to tie the end in to the rest of the manuscript. Then it must sit on my shelf until I have a half a mind to edit and type it.

2002-07-22T10:50:00.000-04:00

Odie and I have been talking about Slayers a lot and she did a bunch of editing late last night. We will get this story whipped into shape!
Not much else to do. I spent a good deal of morning hanging out at Virtual Hogwarts and Mocha Nova. I tried to at least upload files for Tossers Suck!, but Liquid2k seems to be broken. Speaking of the much-hiatused webring, it has a bit of a new mission statment. You've probably all heard about that little girl who was molested and murdered in California. Tossers Suck! will protest child abuse and work for harsher penalties for people who rape children.
What has this world come to?
Anyway, I have shite to do. Riding camp starts tomorrow and I need to finish all the crap I need to do today so I can get to bed at a decent time.
Does anyone other than Luverly actually read this?

2002-07-21T15:57:00.000-04:00

Whoo.
Took the dog for a run this morning, then this other dog kept following us, so I went home. Mom & I also went out to lunch with my Nana and went to all these garden places.
Odie finally came home from her dad's and I talked to her for awhile, but then her stepdad felt the need to use the phone. Gah.
I'm trying to figure out what to do with myself. I probably should be reading, cleaning the cat box or in the very least redesigning Etcetera, Etc., but I just don't want to. Yes, I am a whiner.
After looking at all the new hostees at the place I applied for hosting, I decided Etcetera, Etc. needs a major redesign. I haven't even gotten it up yet and it needs improving. No one ever looks at content anymore, it's all about having the best layout. Yes, a good layout is a great asset to a site, but good content is Job 1.
PNG files are so annoying. They take the better part of five minutes to load. Gah squared. If your layout won't load and your content sucks, what's the point of having a website?

2002-07-20T22:15:00.000-04:00

Ho hum.
I'm a tad bored, but I don't want to go to bed.
I'm having a very girly and refreshing conversation with Luverly.
Dammit. I haven't written in my journal yet today.
What now?

2002-07-20T13:35:00.000-04:00

Sleeping in my own bed again is great. I didn't get up until 10:10.
I kind of cheated and threw in redundant CSS elements and such, but I finally got my CSS to work and Fathoms of Shadow v.III is DONE!!! Whee!!! No more black and gray!
Apparently Luverly is making me a blog layout. Score.
Last night I got really sick of web design. Now, looking at all the sites hosted at desonika.net, I was like, Dammit! I should learn how to do that! Sometimes I just wonder if it's worth all the stress--it's not like I have a whole lot of faithful viewers or anything. And there's so much crap on the Internet anyway. Is it worth it? To be honest, for the time being I'm content with just having this blog, Fathoms of Shadow, and Tame This Mind (and then my projects with Odie). Someday I'd like a domain, but I don't plan on expanding my webspace much. I just really want to host people, especially people who aren't that elite. (P.S. I decided on a domain name: saraneth.net--it's from Sabriel. If it's gone when I go to register it, I will be irate. Don't touch the necromancer's bell.)

2002-07-19T19:53:00.000-04:00

I go away to Canada and everything goes to hell: a) the cat box was hideous and b) mNET got hacked. Which also means that renaissance* is down. Crap.
Anyway, my vacation was pretty good, except for the asthma attack, but we won't get into that. St. Andrews is beautiful and there's tons of good shopping =) If any of you go there, visit Kingsbrae Gardens. They are gorgeous.
I really don't have much to say. I have to work tomorrow. I wrote my article for the Renaissance e-zine and would probably have finished Muggle if I hadn't sort of run out of looseleaf paper. (I remembered everything but extra binder paper. Oy.) I read Sabriel again--I'd forgotten how much that book rocks. If you haven't read it, go read it (it's by Garth Nix if you didn't know that.)
My Yahoo inboxes had 16 messages total, and I haven't dared to open the pornfest that is my AOL inbox yet. I guess I should go sort (read: delete) all my messages.

2002-07-13T21:12:00.000-04:00

Welcome to Canada, it's the Maple Leaf State
Canada, oh Canada it's great
The people are nice and they speak French too
If you don't like it, man, you sniff glue
The Great White North, their kilts are plaid
Hosers take off, it's not half bad
I want to be where yaks can run free
Where Royal Mounties can arrest me
Let's go to Canada, let's leave today
Canada, oh, Canada, I Sil Vous Plait
They've got trees, and mooses, and sled dogs
Lots of lumber, and lumberjacks, and logs
We all think it's kind of a drag
That you have to go there to get milk in a bag
They say "eh?" instead of "what?" or "duh?"
That's the mighty power of Canada
I want to be where lemmings run into the sea
Where the marmosets can attack me
Let's go to Canada, let's leave today
Canada, oh, Canada, I Sil Vous Plait
Let's go to Canada, lets leave today
Canada, oh Canada, I Sil Vous Plait
Please, please, explain to me
How this all has come to be
We forgot to mention something here
Did we say that William Shatner is a native citizen?
And Slurpees made from venison, That's deer
Let's go to Canada, let's leave today
Canada, oh, Canada, I Sil Vous Plait
~ Five Iron Frenzy, "Oh Canada"

2002-07-13T13:16:00.000-04:00

I didn't get up until ten this morning. I am so lazy. *shrugs* Oh well. I'll be quite a busybody while on vacation, so I can lounge around and do nothing now. After all, I won't have the Internet, so I won't be up until eleven trying to HTML crap...speaking of which, I love this new version. It's so beautifully simple.

2002-07-12T22:54:00.000-04:00

Wow. It took a really long time to link up enough crap over there <-- to make that section long enough to fit this section. I don't care if that section is longer than this one, as long as it's not shorter. Maybe I should shut up now.

2002-07-12T22:09:00.000-04:00

Behold, I give you Version IV of Trying to Identify the Voices in My Head: stoic.
If this isn't easy to read and painfully comprehensible, then you are a Grade A dumbass and I don't want you here anyway.

2002-07-12T21:56:00.000-04:00

If this actually works, I'm leaving it up. It will be so much easier than putting version III back up until tomorrow. This is a blog, for God's sake, and an obscure blog at that, not an overhyped film waiting to be released.

2002-07-12T21:51:00.000-04:00

So I worked today. That's about it.
I'm getting really frustrated with renaissance* for some reason.
Currently I'm testing my new layout.
I have to pee.

2002-07-11T19:21:00.000-04:00

Yay! Blogger is back! Apparently their "server went boom" (their term, not mine) and publishing was unavailable.
The folks at mocha nova are so helpful. One actually replied to my CSS plea for help. (Unlike at *coughcoughrencough*.)
So, ah, anyway...my medication made me throw up this morning, so I didn't go to work. They didn't seem too pleased, but I mean, it's like, "Dude, I'm sick and my jaw is so swollen that I look like Richard Nixon!"
I'm trying to come up with the ultimate domain name. Most of the ones I want are already taken, which totally sucks. I've thought of a few new ones, so...yeah. Of course, I'd like to get hosted first so I can learn FTP & crap, but I don't seem to be getting much help in that area, either.

2002-07-10T14:17:00.000-04:00

I've written a lot of Muggle in the past two days and am quite proud of myself. I read it to Odie and I think she enjoyed it.
My CSS still isn't working on Fathoms of Shadow...ho hum. I'd post at renaissance* except that it would be a total waste of time. I mean, look at how helpful they were in my host search. *rolls eyes* Oy...I think I'll make a new blog layout this afternoon and put it up before we go on vacation.
My mouth isn't bleeding anymore, which is nice. My jaw is all swollen and looks really stupid, though. I have to work tomorrow, which totally blows. I'll just show up and be swollen and not eat solid foods at them. So there.

2002-07-09T18:55:00.000-04:00

I was so pissed off yesterday I completely forgot that it was version 3's one-month aniversary. And I'll probably be changing it soon. *shrugs* To be totally honest, web design doesn't have the same appeal to me anymore (suddenly), unless it involves my writing. If the new version of Fathoms of Shadow ever actually comes up, I'll be keeping it for a long time--partially because it's simple, partially because it doesn't require PHP, and partially because it's just pretty.
So anyway, I survived my major surgery. The worst parts were when I woke up and I was all confused since the anesthesia hadn't worn off yet and when my jaw really started to hurt. There was a lot of crying involved. So I've got all this gauze in my mouth and I haven't done a whole lot today besides nap and lounge in the recliner in front of the TV with a magazine. I wasn't even planning on getting online today, but I wrote four pages of Muggle and thought I could use a little Internet.
Most of my opinions from yesterday still stand, but I feel a lot less malevolent today. I feel a gracious indifference toward web design in general. I still love the art, but I'm not so obsessed with it.
Anesthesia and post-op nap can do wonders, eh?
Oh yeah, I finished The Golden Compass last night. I was amazing. I have to read the next two books sometime soon.
Off to make some lousy attempts at CSS. I will not let this stupid code keep me from putting up my fricking website, dammit.

2002-07-08T17:44:00.000-04:00

Well, kids, I'm getting my wisdom teeth pulled tomorrow. Oh goody.
I attempted putting up the new Fathoms of Shadow layout today and it went all right at first; then my CSS and background decided not to work. Luverly's online but "away," so I currently have no HTML help. Crap. Everything will have to wait until tomorrow or the next day. Ack.
Why do I worry so much? It's not like anyone cares anyway. The only people who look at at the site are me and people I force to look at it. Whenever I post at Ren* about a new layout I get one reply if I'm lucky. No one cares. I don't even know why I bother...probably because I have no other life. Therefore, I HTML to pass the time.
Expect serious downsizing of sites/site content. (No image gallery for Tame This Mind. No more Etcetera backgrounds--not that Etcetera, Etc. is up, but whatever. All crap to be erased from Fathoms of Shadow.)
I miss Victoriakitty. She's grounded from the computer, so I haven't talked to her in ages. I wish I could meet more people like her online, people who I can talk to almost every day about silly things that entertain us both, someone who actually cares what I have to say. I've just had the sudden realization that at all these places, these forums, where I think I have friends, I don't. These people don't care about me; they barely know I exist. It mirrors my life in the real world. There's no point in posting comments at people's blogs because I think they care or I think they'll visit my site. They don't. There is never any reciprocation, probably because I don't have my own domain and am not hosted (I tried to get hosted, dammit, but again no one cares), so therefore I am not good enough for them.
Ugh. I am so pissed. I'm going to go write. Writing was my first great joy, and I should stick to that. Forget web design for now. I'm closing Fathoms of Shadow for the time being until I can get some real HTML help (which is highly unlikely) or find a tutorial that actually makes sense (also highly unlikely).
Have a nice day.

2002-07-07T20:24:00.000-04:00

Sweet new layouts here and here. Yay for Bish!!!
So I went to work. That's about it.
Does anyone actually read this??? Probably not. *shrugs* Oh well.
Off to get images for the new Fathoms of Shadow layout. (Yes, my children, it is coming). It's all in here *points to head*

2002-07-07T09:15:00.000-04:00

I'm off to work soon for and 8-hour shift, 10-6. Crap. This is gonna suck. I worked four hours yesterday, too. Possibly what sucks the most is the fact that I can't sit down unless there's no one in the store, but there's this big sale thing going on. So I'm prepared for eight hours on my feet, except maybe lunch.
I can't wait until we go to Canada.

2002-07-06T13:59:00.000-04:00

Grr.
I post at ren* for a host, and no one replies. (I was in a particularly bitchy mood, but whatever.) Someone else who's been there longer and is nicer asks for weblog hosting and she gets two offers the same day. I'm not going to hold it against her, because she's a sweetheart, but it just makes me mad that I can't seem to get Fathoms of Shadow hosted.
I did, however, get an e-mail from someone who saw my cry for help for Etcetera, Etc. at Pick Me!. I checked out her website and I'm not sure if Etcetera, Etc. qualifies, but I HTMLed a few more pages for the site today and I'll try to work something out. I can't seem to find a page I typed ages ago, though. This concerns me.
I have my new layout for Fathoms of Shadow designed and dammit, if I don't get a host offer by tomorrow then a new layout is going up. This is really starting to piss me off.
I am now a member of Virtual Hogwarts! It is uber-cool. (I'm a Hufflepuff, by the way.)

2002-07-03T12:20:00.000-04:00

*sits back and waits*

2002-07-03T12:09:00.000-04:00

It. Is. Hot.
I'm really kind of sick of all this website stuff. I have a new idea for Fathoms of Shadow that (I hope) won't require me to use PHP, so if I don't get any host offers by Sunday, I'm going to start a new layout. Since the current one has been up for nearly two months, I feel like a lazy webmaster.
Also, I'm sick of Trying to Identify the Voices in My Head being at Blog*Spot. It seems unattached to the rest of my website. So if I ever get hosted or get my own domain (I actually think the latter is more likely,) I'm FTP-ing it to whatever server I'm using. Dammit.
I'm going to work on my own laptop today to see if I can get it running and looking a little better.

2002-07-01T15:37:00.000-04:00

Apparently it's an Afghan tradition to shoot off weapons during a wedding. That happened and the U.S. bombed a village where a wedding was taking place, killing 40 people and injuring about 70. There's a whole bunch of orphaned little kids in this village now. So, in conclusion, the American military is in a state of mass hysteria and apparently doesn't even bother checking on anything before they bomb it, or learning the traditions of the country they're in. The Afghans should probably compromise their tradition while there's another country attacking theirs, yes, I'll give the military that--but Afghan lives are just as valuable as American lives, and they should know what they're bombing before they do it.

2002-06-30T20:18:00.000-04:00

Archives back up.
Got a rose bush. (Mom got one, too).
Posted my article at Renaissance successfully.

2002-06-30T10:38:00.000-04:00

So I tried to post my article at Renaissance, but whenever I log in it says "no such user exists." I am totally screwed if I can't get this to work, because the zine only publishes on Sunday. Aww, crap.
Still looking for a host...

2002-06-29T16:33:00.000-04:00

So I cut all my hair off. It's chin-length now and I really like it. My head feels so much lighter--in fact, I felt a little off-balance when I got up to leave the hairdresser's.
I think some random surfing is in order.

2002-06-29T11:36:00.000-04:00

*smacks forehead*
I am so retarded. I should never leave comments in people's blogs ever again. For my homepage I typed in my e-mail address. And posted it. *is a dumbass* I really should pay more attention to these sorts of things. So if I've left something totally stupid in your blog, I apologize. It's not quite noon, and therefore I haven't woken up. *shakes head* I feel so stupid.
Cleaning dog snot off a window is much harder than it looks. It took me at least fifteen minutes--and I cleaned it just a month ago.
<--If you have a domain, read the "Host Shopping" heading at left. Thank you.

2002-06-28T21:10:00.000-04:00

Woot! I got accepted as an editor to Renaissance! My article is supposed to be published Sunday, so go take a look then.
Other than that, I'm host shopping.
Riding went pretty well. It poured several times during the lesson, but fortunately neither of the horses freaked out. Starting next week I'm riding in the morning, so with any luck it won't be quite so hot.

2002-06-28T10:24:00.000-04:00

I'm currently joining the seanbiggerstaff.com message board. This makes me feel unusually creepy and stalker-like, but I need something to amuse myself with in Renaissance*'s absence. I just pray it's better than the SB Yahoo club. It was like a teenybopper war zone over there. Eee.

2002-06-28T10:05:00.000-04:00

I worked yesterday. Five hours of nothingness. Woot. I'll spare you the details. Yesterday I was too worn out by my boredom and too depressed by the inanity of my job to actually blog.
Scratch everything I've previously said about moving to Luverly's domain, as she can't host any more people. So I tried putting up a listing at Find Me, but you have to have a link button up first and I couldn't do that because Liquid2k decided to randomly stop working. And Pick Me! is down.
So basically, I'm screwed.

2002-06-26T17:42:00.000-04:00

*passes out*
Liquid2k doesn't allow PHP. What a bitch-slap.
What to do now?? It seems like I'll be moving everything to Luverly's server.
Could the world be any more of a pain in the arse?
Anyway, in national news, apparently people are flipping out about how the Pledge of Allegiance says "under God." Oy. If people have a problem with it, then God doesn't have to be the Christian God in the minds when they say the words--it can mean Allah or Buddha or whoever. The Pledge of Allegiance was written in a time when there were no religions in America that didn't worship God. Respect the fact.

2002-06-26T15:07:00.000-04:00

Things that are currently medically wrong with me:

asthma
allergies (animals, leaves, pollen, dust, and just about everything else)
lactose intolerancy
does being reallyreally short count?
bad eyesight (glasses)
crooked bite (braces)
this might not count, but for the record I have virtually no feeling in the skin over my left ankle bone
and now, the big one: I have high cholesterol. How is this possible? I'm 5'1" and weight 115 lbs. My mom has high cholesterol too because her liver makes too much, but for me to have to go to nutrition counseling at age 15 is ridiculous. So now I guess I have to stop eating junk food, which is totally going to suck once school starts because whenever I come home from school I'm exhausted and need quick energy.

Oh, I just thought of another impending medical problem: I have a cold just about every other week. And, according to my blood work, I don't have mono or anemia.
I am a walking disease farm.

2002-06-26T10:53:00.000-04:00

Still sick. This irks me.
I've saved all the Fathoms of Shadow files I need on my hard drive and am now going to make some PHP. If I'm not back in a week, send a web designer.

2002-06-25T17:16:00.000-04:00

Luverly said the contrast between the background color and the text color made my blog different to read and suggested adding a dropshadow last night. Well, I did. It took me 678 tries, but eventually it worked. And then guess what happened? The stupid dropshadow made it harder to read. So you kids are stuck with hard-to-read bloggage until I figure out what to do. Sometime in July, probably while I'm home and in pain due to my lack of wisdom teeth, I think I'll put up a new layout--a very, very simple layout. I love this current one, but I'm not feeling very nostalgic right now. Besides, I can always reuse this one if need be. So take that, my loyal readers, take that.

2002-06-24T20:36:00.001-04:00

The Gainfully Employed Octavia will be making more than minimum wage. Can we say, "Score!"?
I went shopping today. We won't get into the details.
I love ice cream.
Believe it or not, I actually was going to start converting Fathoms of Shadow to PHP today. Unfortunately, Liquid2k picked this as a great opportunity to break. So, alas, I am PHP-less still.

2002-06-24T20:36:00.000-04:00

2002-06-23T19:39:00.000-04:00

I just went to my school's website for the first time and ouch. It is painful. Overuse of frames, huge tacky buttons, and it hasn't been updated in a year. Yikes. I really should've gone to that meeting about people wanting to help design the school website, because I honestly think I could've done better. Mom says I should get permission to fix it. I'm starting to agree with her.

2002-06-23T15:13:00.000-04:00

I just cleaned out a couple of my old web accounts and feel pretty good about myself.
This PHP stuff is hard. I had to have Luverly explain it to me. This would be one of those times when I feel like a complete moron. (Which I suppose I am).
I had altar-serving today. The two kids I was working with had no idea what they were doing, but nevertheless it was entertaining. (Almost anything can be entertaining at 8:00 in the morning.)

2002-06-22T19:51:00.000-04:00

Arright. I've made a rather important decision.
Liquid2k is being mucho stupido when it comes to actually saving my CSS and distributing it to all the files I have linked to it. Therefore, I am going to learn PHP (cue angelic singing) to make layout-updating easier. Fathoms of Shadow is too huge to have a stylesheet cut-and-pasted on every single page. So now I'm off to php-princess to try to learn a few things.
Expect many delays and Fathoms of Shadow's prolonged absence.

2002-06-22T19:22:00.000-04:00

This morning I officially murdered (read: deleted) Pet Peeves. I feel a little better now about my ability to let websites go.
Somehow I forgot to mention that I am no "gainfully employed" (as my Mom puts it), working at a good-smelling gift shop called Boysenberries. I start Monday. Let's all hope that this improves my people skills. *coughcoughyeahrightcough*
We went to my grandparents' house and ended up staying for supper. Note to self: wear bigger pants next time. My Grammie is one mean cook.

2002-06-22T12:43:00.000-04:00

Finished reading the first Harry Potter book for the second time. Now maybe I should make a dent in all those library books.
Rosie is fascinated by the piano. It's really quite hilarious.

2002-06-21T20:11:00.000-04:00

*blinks*
I went to check the FoS main page to see my CSS was working and I got a '301 Moved Permanently' screen with a link to the page as it was before I changed it to say that the page was down. Something's definitely wrong with Liquid2k. Maybe if I completely lose my sanity within the next couple of weeks, I'll move it to daintyroseORG when Luverly hosts me. Heh. Simply changing the layout for FoS is frustrating. Moving it could possibly kill me. So, in conclusion, we're takin' down that link before "those punks at Liquid2k" break anything else.

2002-06-21T19:59:00.000-04:00

Everyone go download John Mayer's song "No Such Thing." It is uber, uber-awesome. =) While you're at it, get me a Coffee Coolatta. I really want one of those right now.
*regains consciousness*
Anyway, I'm taking down my archives for no particular reason other than they give me problems more often than they work and at this present time I want to be the only one with access to them. Yes, kids, I am a very evil kaiser-like webmaster.
I used to say "webmistress" in a desperate attempt to be politically correct, but that sounds so painfully dumb that I gave up. It's like, just say webmaster. It's a unisex term. Yeesh. <--I use so many onomatopeic terms in everyday blogging that it's a wonder anyone has any idea what I'm talking about.
Mimarin.net used up its bandwidth, so renaissance, Bish's blog, and everything else on mNET are currently down. (Basic cause and effect, but I thought I'd explain anyway because I have nothing better to write about.) Luverly told me Bish might remove Ren because that's where he gets most of his hits. =( I will miss Ren. I learned a great many things there, mainly about how cool you can make your avatars look if you try really hard.
One of the worst after effects of being sick is the current state of my nose. After blowing it 98,235,238,920 times, it's all red and peeling. Not very pleasant, hear you me.

2002-06-21T19:14:00.000-04:00

Tables and JavaScript are the root of all evil.
Anyway, Fathoms of Shadow is currently down for the sake of my sanity while I redesign it. I really need to learn PHP to make all of my redesigns easier. Luverly gave my a website to reference and I guess I'll go from there.
So much for trying to move the links, formerly at the right of picture, to the right of my text. This is one of those times when I really, really wish I'd never gotten myself into this HTML business. Someone buy me DreamWeaver, please. Then I won't have to do all of this myself.

2002-06-21T17:58:00.000-04:00

What a difference a squirrel makes when discussing your day.
Mom was out and Griffin started barking at something. The squirrel was sitting on top of the heater by its little hole. After shutting the dogs in the office, I embarked in a 20-minute crusade to catch the squirrel. Those things are fast. So I chased the squirrel all over the house with a towel and, eventually, a bucket, until I managed to pick him up long enough to put him in the bucket, throw the towel over the bucket, and run outside.
There should be superheroes named after squirrels. They're fast, agile, and can eat seeds like nobody's business. I think the only reason cartoonists haven't created a Squirrel Man is that it would be weird to have a superhero with a big fluffy tail.

2002-06-21T15:33:00.000-04:00

The resident squirrel is still at large.
I haven't really done anything worth talking about today. Sorry.

2002-06-20T21:56:00.000-04:00

I've been having way too much fun on HTML validators. I got rid of lots of images, but my scripts are still retarded. I give up. My brain hurts. The squirrel is still at large, although we've set a trap for it. (Relax, it's a live trap.)

2002-06-20T20:16:00.000-04:00

We have a squirrel in the house. It's inside the island bar thing (which is really more of a peninsula if you ask me, since one end is on the wall.) We have an improvised live trap contraption set up. It probably won't work, but it's worth a try.

2002-06-20T17:57:00.000-04:00

John Mayer ~ "No Such Thing"
Went to Odie's today, we didn't do much on the level of constructivity. (<--pretend that's a word, kids.)
Kelly Osbourne's version of "Papa Don't Preach" is pretty frickin' awesome.
I'm going to go work on this webring thing Odie and I are working on. Oh yes, Dammit Productions has it's first webring...or, at least, it's going to have one once I make it/Liquid2k starts to work.

2002-06-19T15:34:00.000-04:00

Uuugghhhhhhhh.

2002-06-19T08:03:00.000-04:00

I hope I don't die. Last night I honestly thought I had kidney failure or something and that's why I'm sick all the time.
Aylah and I are going to make a webringgy clique-y thing tomorrow at her house. 'Tis going to be uber, uber cool.

2002-06-18T16:25:00.000-04:00

I am sick again. I totally have mono.
Cleaned out my drawers today and moved around/refolded clothes. The drawers actually shut now.
Today was rather unproductive, but whatever. It's summer. Leave me alone. I HTMLed some things from the Nebula that are going to wind up on Fathoms of Shadow. So that's something.

2002-06-17T18:50:00.000-04:00

Okay so I wasn't supposed to get online, but I cleaned. A lot. So shut up.
Saw "Behind Enemy Lines" yesterday and "Elizabeth" today. Both uber good.
Odie has a blog now! Whee!

2002-06-15T16:09:00.000-04:00

My song interpretations page is up. Okay, kids, now I'm leaving because I a) have nothing left to do online; and b) have to pee. So I'll see ya once my room is clean.
(I started cleaning this morning and have about 6 inches of paper to recycle).

2002-06-15T15:21:00.000-04:00

I just realized that I was going to put up my song interpretations today. And I didn't. That might have to wait until later. Ah, screw it, I might as well do it now.

2002-06-15T14:51:00.000-04:00

Tame This Mind is just about finished. I have up the Miscellaneous and Link Me sections. Eventually I'll get an image gallery, but not right now.
Week after next I plan on doing the following:

Putting up Etcetera, Etc.
New layout at Fathoms of Shadow
Taking down Pet Peeves (it'll become a master list somewhere at Fathoms of Shadow)
Moving a lot of stuff from the Nebula to Fathoms of Shadow

Yes, kids, I will be merging the Nebula's content with that of Fathoms of Shadow. Expage is, well, crap, and I don't think it'll be worth it to redesign the site someplace else. Fathoms of Shadow is becoming more about Gormenghast and less about me, so I'm going to take everything that was previously on the Nebula and put it on Fathoms of Shadow. I used to think expanding the amount of webspace I take up is a good thing, but it's not; managing such a huge amount of material is difficult. The Nebula was my first website and it holds a little nostalgia for me, but progress must be made in the name of HTML.
There was a car accident yesterday near my house and someone died. My dad and I saw the car being towed away and the top of it was all smashed in. It's so horrible.

2002-06-14T11:27:00.000-04:00

Brain. Is. Fried.

2002-06-14T10:42:00.000-04:00

*stretches*
Okay. The lyrics to Lifehouse songs are linked to the song title in the "No Name Face Info" section. Well, the first six of them. My brain kind of hurts, so I'll do the rest later. Not bad progress for morning, if you ask me.

2002-06-13T22:05:00.000-04:00

It hurts, it hurts.
I've been putting up the new layout for Tame This Mind for hours on end. It would help if images didn't upload so crappily. I shouldn't be overworking like this, but I want to get it done so I don't have that to do that on top of Etcetera, Etc. Well, once it's done it will be beautiful, and with all the extra images I've had to make because I need smaller ones (and resizing them distorts them) I'll have a nice little fanart/stock art section. Neato.

2002-06-13T12:34:00.000-04:00

Crap. My last post didn't post because AOL broke (as usual.)
Anyway, I am officially a sophomore!!!
Dead rodent on front steps. (Rosie, Scarlett, you suck). Tried to clean it up, couldn't get it onto the shovel. It's all ripped-apart and gross.
Working on Tame This Mind. It will be pretty.

2002-06-11T19:19:00.000-04:00

I'd just like to say that Ents are the coolest creatures in The Lord of the Rings trilogy.
So there. Take that.
Or am I just wasting my time? ~ blink-182, "Wasting Time" (Hell yes).

2002-06-11T16:37:00.000-04:00

"Hanging by a Moment" is still on the Billboard Adult Top 40 chart. It's #16 (not bad, eh?) in its 69th week.
Holy crap.
So much for not spastically posting.

2002-06-11T16:33:00.000-04:00

*blinks*
I just sent an e-mail to Garth Nix, recommending the Gormenghast novels.
I truly am crazy. (Or mad, as they say in England). Or maybe I'm just fearless. Sometimes I think I'm both. I am so off my rocker that I know no fear.

2002-06-11T15:42:00.000-04:00

Ooh, I think my template might be working now. Score.
I am so sick of getting junk mail, especially when it's not addressed to me. Half the time I don't even unsubscribe from all this crap I technically didn't subscribe to in the first place. If it involves me replying to the message to unsubscribe, then screw it. Usually I get the e-mail back anyway because the address the e-mail came from doesn't actually exist. Ah, the joys of signing up for Web services and getting your e-mail distributed to every business on the planet.
Massmarketing4you.com. Well, there you go.
No, I do not want bigger basoomas, thank you very much. (They didn't actually say "basoomas," but I pick up way too many terms from Louise Rennison books).
I came up with a new layout for Tame This Mind (woot!) It uses inline frames, but I don't plan on moving the site anytime soon. I'll just see if I can use one of those ad killer things. I'll still leave up one banner, I'd just prefer not to have two on the same page.
Ooh, good, posts at The Wired. Things go a little slowly there, so I just post whenever I have a semi-original thought in a desperate attempt to keep up the action.
This is turning out to be quite the long post. Well, I suppose it's more pleasant for y'all than reading my hundred one-sentence posts a day. I'm starting to turn into a normal blogger instead of a spastic poster. Always improving, me.

2002-06-11T13:01:00.000-04:00

Science and Latin final today. Eh.
I went book shopping last night (whee!) and got two books: Lirael by Garth Nix and On the Bright Side, I'm Now the Girlfriend of a Sex God by Louise Rennison. I started reading the latter and it's hilarious.
My old template still shows up, so I have to keep copying & pasting the new one in. Grr.

2002-06-10T16:21:00.001-04:00

Nope.

2002-06-10T16:21:00.000-04:00

I wonder if my template has fixed itself yet...

2002-06-09T13:28:00.000-04:00

I resized the image because it was huge.
I have the new Fathoms of Shadow layout all planned and ready, but that will wait until next weekend/my Web Week. I've done enough new layout-age in the past two days.
Blogger (you stupid, stupid...yeah you get the idea) is being retarded and won't save my new HTML. It keeps reverting to the last layout. Gah.

2002-06-09T11:16:00.000-04:00

Archives can be deadly. Whenever I get bored online I'll just read people's archives. This can be dangerous because your IQ drops severely when you're bored. One time I tried reading Simon's archives and I almost hurt myself because of all the techie things he was talking about. Never read the blog of someone's who's smarter than you when your IQ is impaired.

2002-06-08T22:15:00.000-04:00

AOL, you suck. I tried to maximize this window and I closed it because your setup is so stupid. Grr.
I got so bored that I read Bish's entire archive. (Okay, so I cheated and skimmed some of it. Mainly the stuff that wasn't in English.) I was going to post a comment about something, but there was no comment box...and now, come to think of it, I don't actually remember what it was about. Oh well.
Okay this is like the eighth time I've posted today.
My butt hurts. I've been in this chair too long. The funny thing is, I wasn't actually going to get back online, but after I studied for my science final I thought of something I wanted to look up. And alas, I am still here.
Oh, this is only my fifth post today. I can live with that.
I'm starting to see cross-eyed. Must. Sleep...

2002-06-08T21:15:00.000-04:00

Studied for my science final. It was really boring.
I need a life.
The Lifehouse webmaster fixed their JavaScript so that the gallery works properly now (yay!)...I should update Tame This Mind. Granted, I also want more people to help with the ultimate-Lifehouse-fansite thing so we can actually get started. (If you're interested, e-mail me. I'll put a link to the thread pertaining to the site on FF later, when my computer/Internet decides to function a little better).
Blogger not publishing my changes. This irks me.

2002-06-08T19:30:00.000-04:00

P.S. Welcome, everyone from renaissance* and The Wired. And everyone else, for that matter.
Whenever I click the template button, I get all my old HTML. Damn you, Blogger. I saved and published the new HTML. Good thing I have it saved in Word.
You stupid, stupid bitch.
Maybe I should see what the dog's doing. He could very well have eaten a sock by now.

2002-06-08T19:27:00.000-04:00

Blogger, you stupid, stupid bitch. Update my friggen page.

2002-06-08T18:59:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to: "seein' red" unwritten law (fitting, isn't it?)
Time for the new layout! DundundundundunDUN!!!!! It took forever for me to get the Internet to work. Eesh.
No Triple Crown this year =( It's really too bad. War Emblem would've had it if he hadn't tripped at the starting gate.
So I saw the middle school play last night with Aylah and damn. Might have to start robbing the cradle pretty soon, 'cos some of those eighth grade guys have gotten a lot better-looking...XD yeah right, like I'm actually going to do that...one of the kids doing lights said, "Hey, I remember you, you were the princess or something last year." I was like, "No, no I wasn't, my name's Octavia and I'm an exchange student from Holland!" Yeah,they didn't believe me. (For the record, I was Elder Cinderella--I had four lines and they all sucked.)
Okay, now it's time to actually change the layout template.

2002-06-07T17:11:00.000-04:00

Well, kids, I ran my mile on the treadmill in gym class today. My time was 9:42--not bad for a sick asthmatic cripple. I ran the whole thing with my shoes untied, too. (That was kind of an accident).
Aimee and Calla weren't at riding, so I had a private lesson. It was fun, except Seaboy kept overbending and drifting toward the middle.
New blog layout up tomorrow, yo.

2002-06-06T16:17:00.000-04:00

Thought this was pretty funny.

:: how jedi are you? ::

2002-06-06T15:33:00.000-04:00

New Lifehouse album due September 17! Story here. The official Lifehouse website has a new sweet layout, too.

2002-06-06T15:27:00.000-04:00

Two days until the new layout is up. I might even put it up tomorrow night if I get that bored. (Which is likely). It all depends on how much time I have on Saturday, as my cousin's graduation party is then. I'm also supposed to go see the play at my brother's school (although my brother isn't actually in it) tomorrow or Saturday.
We had this awards ceremony thing at school today. I got little acheivement pins in all my classes except geometry, which was fine because I suck at geometry anyway.
I'm working on a new, bright-and-happy layout for Fathoms of Shadow. I'll miss the current one, but it's getting quite dreary.
My Welcome to AOL screen has some awesome pictures from the Hubble Telescope, one of which I'd like to use for...something. (Sometimes it's just useful to have these sorts of things on your hard drive.) Unfortunately, right-clicking is disabled, so I checked out the NASA website. As it turns out, the NASA website kind of sucks. Ooh. Now I've found the official Hubble Site and it is pretty. Now this is progress.

2002-06-05T17:55:00.000-04:00

Had way too much fun here.
Currently Listening To: "Summer Wind Was Our Song" The Ataris (I like it so far.)

2002-06-05T17:15:00.000-04:00

Whoa. I cleaned my hard drive prematurely because Dad needs to take it to work and get new software installed on it. I converted all my .bmps and .arts to .jpgs and deleted the old files, along with other crap I didn't need. The total: 94 items, 43.9 megabytes. Whoa squared.
Submitted an article to Renaissance today.
I'm thinking of making a separate poetry website. I really like the idea and having each poem on a separate page over at Fathoms of Shadow is quite tedious. I know where I want to apply for hosting. I'm just going to go and do it, dammit. I don't want to have a huge website to work with every single time I want to change a layout or something. I like having a collective of little sites. =)
Didn't have to run in gym class today, which was good because my knee was killing me. (I twisted it yesterday being a dumbass and running inside when I heard the three-minute bell ring. The Klutz strikes again). Stairs were murder. Walking on a flat was okay, but running on hard floor probably would have sucked. I can do 47 sit-ups in a minute, though.

2002-06-04T15:35:00.000-04:00

It still looks like a reindeer.

2002-06-04T15:30:00.000-04:00

Whoa. There is something definitely wrong with me. There was a picture of a helicopter spraying stuff over a wildfire on my Welcome to AOL screen, and I honestly thought it was a jumping reindeer. (What? The extinguishing stuff it was pouring out was kind of reindeer colored.)
I have to run the mile tomorrow. Of course, my gym teacher neglected to notify me of this until today. I normally don't run because, well, I suck. I'm asthmatic, always sick, and athletically impaired. Apparently that qualifies for the disabled list, but I still have to run the mile. Aylah said I should just walk the whole thing (24 times around the gym--dizzy), and I think I will. Just to piss off my gym teacher.
I'm off to waste some more time.

2002-06-03T16:21:00.000-04:00

Hello, kids. I coughed up a phlem loogie the size of the quarter this morning. It was gross.
One week till finals. Well, sort of...I don't have any on Monday because it's my gym and study hall periods. Whatever. I think (hope) I can last another week.
This is a way cool e-zine: Renaissance. (And no, it has nothing to do with the forum of the same name).

2002-06-02T14:55:00.000-04:00

Still quite sick.
I left my English book at school because I forgot I had homework. Argh. That means I have to do it tomorrow morning before class starts. That sucks. I don't even want to go to school tomorrow.

2002-06-01T16:23:00.000-04:00

P.S. I gave up looking for free/adless hosts. I'm hoping I can eventually get hosted by someone with a domain anyway, so I'm just going to get a second Liquid2k account and see how that works. It should be fine, since it will just be temporary.

2002-06-01T16:22:00.000-04:00

Octavia was a good girl today. She typed up the Etcetera Actresses page in HTML. Octavia is achy. Octavia is sick. Octavia's brain is so fried she is referring to herself in the third person.
I don't know what to do with myself today...or yesterday, for that matter. I'm saving everything for summer, which probably isn't a good idea, but I suppose wasting one weekend is a lot better than wasting an entire summer.
We're going to go look for a floor lamp for my room.

2002-06-01T10:19:00.000-04:00

Once again, kids, I am sick. Oh joy.
My schedule for the next couple of weeks is here.

2002-05-31T22:36:00.000-04:00

Yeah, so I was going to use web1000 to host Etcetera, Etc., but they also host porn. A lot of it, it seems like. So, no. Not going to happen. I'm still looking.